Our Faith Grows Stronger Through the Hardships . . .

Isaiah 14:27, “Nothing can stop God’s plan for your life.”

Psalm 48:14, “For this God is our God forever and ever, he will be our guide even unto death.”

Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”

Life is filled with ups and downs, and God’s plan is not always an easy road. Some days it is hard to keep our faith because the road gets so bumpy. God does not promise us that every day will be happy and smooth, but He does promise us that He will always be with us! He keeps his promises to all of us, we must make sure our faith stays strong and does not falter. Wow! Is this ever difficult in some of those bumps in the road!

Our life was hectic even after our graduation, but in 1980 we were blessed with the news that I was pregnant. Mrs. McGinnis was so excited! Her first grandchild! However, in my 4th month I miscarried. Up to that point in my life, I do not feel like I had ever faced anything so devastating, and for the first time in my life I felt my faith waver just a little. How could God let this happen? I remember the first day I went back to work after the miscarriage. I got on the elevator to go up to my office, and two other employees got on with me. Both were pregnant. They talked and laughed about the indigestion, being uncomfortable all the time, inability to sleep, and so on. The entire time they talked and laughed, I stood in the corner of the elevator with my heart breaking even more, and my faith in God truly shaken. I almost got off the elevator and went home, however, I knew I needed to face my grief and move on.

Then one night as I sat alone in our apartment in Chapel Hill, with tears flowing down my face, I heard God’s voice. Not softly, but loud! God needs do that with me quite often! “Lynne be patient. I have plans for you and Mike. Please be patient and wait. There is someone in your future who will steal your heart and change your life forever. Just wait.” Experience had shown me how important it was to listen to God, and to continue to follow His plan. However, this was difficult for Mike and me both.

God does provide, and his mercy and grace are incomparable! In July of 1981, I found out I was pregnant again. Our baby would be born around mid-April. We were so excited, but also hesitant to tell anyone. We did not want our families to have to go through the sorrow and grief again if I miscarried again. Yet, there was just something different about this time. I could feel the life of our child growing and it was so exciting. Soon, we shared the news with our families and begin preparing for the arrival of our child in April. However, once again God had other plans and an incredible sense of humor. ACC basketball is incredibly important in our families. You just do not plan events during the weekend of ACC basketball tournament. So, what does God do, he has our little bundle of joy come about 5 weeks early, right in the middle of ACC basketball tournament weekend. Our beautiful baby boy, Patrick Allen, was born March 11, 1982. Weighing less than 5 pounds, and having difficulty breathing. Yet he was here, and I held him in my arms, and yes God was right. He stole my heart that first moment, and my life was forever changed. Mike and I were concerned at first, but we began to see changes in Patrick for the better, with all the care he received from the nurses in the hospital. Our faith had been restored, and we knew God would take care of him. This was his promise to me, that he had someone else for me that would change my life. God’s plan! After spending a couple of weeks in the hospital we brought him home, and what had once been just a house, truly became a home! Our family was perfect!

Soon after that we moved to Greenville, NC and Mike became Chief Flight Nurse for Eastcare, an air ambulance program. In 1985, Patrick went to daycare so Mike could work, and I could go back to school to get my education degree (another part of God’s plan that I ignored the first time in school). One day the daycare called me and told me that Patrick as well as several of the other children were extremely sick and I needed to come get him. When I arrived at the daycare, Patrick and several other children were throwing up convulsively. Fortunately, the hospital was right across the street. I took him there and they immediately admitted him as well as the others into the intensive care unit. After several long, anxiety ridden hours, we finally had a scary diagnosis. Hemolytic Uremic Syndrome evidently caused by apple juice not being processed correctly. It had attacked his kidneys, his lungs, and he was losing blood to the point he had to have blood transfusions. That first night I was told he had a 50% chance of making it through the night. I was also told I could not be beside his bed, that I had to wait in the lobby. They soon realized that was not going to happen. This was my three-year-old that you just told me might die, he was not going to be alone in a hospital bed if this was his last night. I remember calling my parents and Mike’s parents and telling them what was happening. I remember holding my son’s hand as he barely hung on to life. I remember getting on my knees and praying to God to save my son’s life. During the night one of the other children died, and I remember hearing and seeing the grief of her parents. My heart just stopped. I was trying desperately to hold to my faith, to hold on to the belief in God and he can do all things. I just remember that night as if it were yesterday. With the morning came a sense of calmness, and that God truly can do all things. Patrick had taken a positive turn during the early morning hours, and the doctors were filled with hope that he was going to make it. However, we still had a long road in front of us. Within a few months, Patrick was a highly active 3-year-old once again. Life was somewhat back to normal.

I will admit I am a stubborn person, and sometimes God really must come at me with all forces for me to understand He has this, He knows way beyond my understanding. Nothing will stop His plan for my life, He is my God and my God forever, and I will trust in Him with my whole heart! I will acknowledge Him for He will make my path straight and direct according to His will and plan. His word tells me this! I trust in His word!

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